Thursday, August 29, 2013

the way I feel about places

doodles in my journal, just to have a photo in this post :)

These days are busy busy busy and it's exhausting but I like it. Maybe I exaggerate a little, it's just that I have task after task to keep me constantly heading forward, one day at a time, and it's definitely better than a slow drag of nothingness.

I can't imagine why anyone would be interested in my daily life anymore, apart from those closest to me, but I felt like blogging and thought that I would. I have a few things to tell you about anyway.

I visited Wenkai in early August. My family made a trip down south despite my dad saying earlier that I wasn't allowed to travel anywhere because I hadn't gotten a job; which I thought was fair enough yet didn't stop me from being completely miserable because of it. I have a thing with places these days. I can't seem to stay in one place for too long because I notice the way the surroundings shape themselves so much more than I used to. Returning is fine, that constant moving is good for me because I get to see things at least slightly differently. And since getting to know him, I've noticed my perception of certain things change as well.

He drove me around his city, and we didn't always past by the places I'd been, but as I stared out the window from the passenger's seat, there were the occasional glimpses of familiarity. I realise that I don't fight against feelings so much anymore. I am more accepting in ways that only I could recognise, but then this came with a sense of lost. Where I once stood on firm ground of knowing where I thought I belonged shifted, and I found myself nowhere.

I guess I'll learn to get use to this constantly arising sense of lost and remind myself that we never eveer stay in one place so it's okay, we're just moving. I'd wanted to write more about my visit, but I guess this post worked out this way and what's relevant has been said so I'll leave this as it is for now. I can't put my whole life here anyway, and the actual experience always has so much more weight than words strung together. But I had a great time. I couldn't not have, it was with him.


Wednesday, August 28, 2013

if i were to ever give advice on love

Don't you want to be that if they picked you, it'll be the best choice they'd ever made?

In love and in work; anything really. That is why you have to be the best version of yourself first. Stop looking for the perfect one and start being the perfect one yourself.

Friday, August 2, 2013

magazine feature

I've got more to say, but right now, I thought I would share this. I know it's been a few months, but a few of my instagram photos were featured in Atlas Magazine! I've never been a big fan of phone photography, however I'll admit that it is convenient and I put the love for photography over equipment anyway. 

The starred ones are mine.  And while you're at it, check out Atlas magazine's issues -they have pretty cool stuff in there!